Checking In

Yeah, it’s about what you’d expect.

Election results rolled in and it became clear that Americans chose hate and fear rather than try to make lives better for anyone other than conservative Christian men.

I am really not okay, but I’m doing better than yesterday. Monday was wonderful. Tuesday was anxious. Tuesday night and Wednesday morning I was screaming, crying, and throwing up. Unironically.

I’m still doing the first two.

Tuesday I felt great and dressed up.

Wednesday I was wondering if it’s safe to wear my pronoun pin and if I need to remove the Mx from my email signature. Right now I’m keeping them. I’m going to force folks to put a face and name with their policies of hate.

May it haunt them.

Over the course of the day some relationships ended and others were strengthened. I’m still working through all this and will for be some time – at least four years or more – but at least I feel a little less alone than I did at 5 AM Wednesday morning.

family/friends that called/texted: 30+

Blocks due to “praise god for Trump”: 2

Relationships ended for “both sides” or calls for those who supported Harris to show “kindness” to Trump and his supporters: 5

Note: while I will be civil, I don’t owe kindness those those who voted to take away my rights.

Mood: focused anger